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Idk how many live in an apartment or not but were we live at they wanna reinvent our apartment and expect us to go somewhere that doesn't even have a washer and dryer connection! So I watch the news and they say like other people that they can't kick us out during this hard time and all. My mom is freaking out and has boxes but we have no one to help us even move anywhere for us to even do so. I hate how the owner of where i stay at chooses the dumbest time to reinvent shit!

Don't even know why I am writing this. A message in a digital bottle, I guess. 

Sex has brought me more shame and sadness than joy. Bisexual and closeted through my 35-year marriage. I lost my wife 5 years ago, but love her still and hate myself for my dishonesty (and all the times I cheated with other men and women). But if I had been truthful with her, we never would have had those years together. I honestly thought I could put my bisexual desires away - loved her then and now - and (at first at least, like any marriage) the sex was more than satisfying. But I was lying to myself long before I lied to her. 

I am still afraid to live my truth, though no one would care if I 'outed' myself at this point. I am in my 60s now and know that my appearance and age make unfuckable. I occasionally go to bathhouses (pre-plague) but that primarily means I wander around being ignored (of course) hoping to happen upon a hot scenario of fit younger guys getting off together so I can wank privately at a safe distance. Is there anything more pathetic than being that fat, pale old guy jerking off by himself while hot younger guys suck and fuck? I think not.  Living the dream...

If I had been straight, maybe I could have avoided this ongoing self-hatred. Maybe I could have been true to her - my behaviour matching my undeniable love for her. Instead, I am cursed with unresolvable guilt - a chain of my own making.  If I had simply been gay, I would probably not be alive now - I very likely would have caught AIDS. We were married in 1980 when I was 24 - to have been active in the gay world in those days would have been deadly. I was always very careful in my other encounters and other than the bathhouse visits (I was more participatory when I was younger) and male massage parlours, I never attempted a 'date' or any kind of relationship with another man or woman.

I remain horny - though my plumbing is intermittently cooperative. I sometimes go to female massage places just to see if I still work. Now I am just a pathetic old man occasionally jerking it to boys (and girls) who are FAR too young. Unless I pay for it, I will never be touched again. I will never share a true kiss or feel a loving embrace. Never wake to the warmth of her beside me. I sleep with her ashes now and wake each morning to soul-crushing sadness and remorse. I cannot change the past and I have no interest in the future. I will die alone (I guess, ultimately we all do). No kids or close family.

Don't let this happen to you.

From my "About Me" (that I hope you have read) you find out about the sex-club 4 guys and myself invented.  Johnny called me yesterday and told me his folks were gone for the weekend. He asked me to come over and spend the night with him. I needed to cum so bad. When I got to his place I found 2 guys I knew and one new guy.  We made sure he knew about our shower rule. Since there were 4 of us we paired-up to shower. Johnny and Paul went first and got all their holes washed out. I got to shower with the new guy, Kenny. Kenny washed my body from head to toe paying special attention to my cock and balls and my poop-shoot. When he rinsed my dick he stroked it and began to suck it. I was almost ready to cum and I pulled out of his mouth and told him to stop. I wanted to save that for his pussy later.

Then I washed his body. He was cute with his strawberry-blond hair and grey eyes. As I was standing in front of him washing his face, chest, tummy, dick and balls he was staring at me with those eyes.  He pulled me to him him and kissed me so deep, with so much passion. I reached down and put my hand around his cock and he pressed himself against me as his cum covered my dick. I couldn't hold back any longer and shot my load on him.  We stood there, under the hot water, holding one another, stilling cumming - our cocks throbbing in unison.

We had taken too much time because Johnny and Paul opened the shower door on us. I don't know how long they had hard dicks but they both had theirs in their hands.

Wow, I'll have to tell about the rest of the night and our McDonald's takeout in a bit.

Maybe porn should do a little more like what is done here at 3:22 and have a box shot shall we call it?    This would not negate having full screen views or close ups of the boy's face as he frantically and desperately struggles through orgasm of course.    :)

 

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So I've been trying all day with different cards, and calling my bank to see if there was an issue with my card that I kept getting declined today trying to process a Premium Member application.  Well, I finally chatted with CCBill Customer Support who said that they are no longer processing payments for the site, and to try another payment processor.  Since CCBill is the only one that pops up when you click on the link to apply, does anyone else who has recently become Premium know how to do it?  Like is there another processor I'm not seeing?

Any help is appreciated.  Hopefully it's not the first sign of something tragic about to happen to the site.

Have you ever watched two different movies only to find out they both used the same exact line?

I was watching first "True Lies" and then later on "17 Again".  In "True Lies" Arnold's character is on a test drive with a used car salesman who is pretending to be a spy in order to sleep with women.  One woman he is trying to have sex with is Arnold's wife.  When he is describing her to Arnold he discribes her body as having an ass like a 10 year old boy.  OK.  First, how many 10 year old boy asses has this guy seen to know what to compare to?

Then later I was watching "17 Again" with Zach Efron.  Near the start of the movie, after Matthew Perry is downgraded to 17 Again, he is in the driveway of his soon to be ex-wives house playing basketball with his son, when his ex and her best friend drive in.  As they are walking into the house, her best friend is making comments about getting her back out on the market, and that she "has the ass of a 10 year old boy."

WTF? Didn't I just hear that. I've had both movies in my collection for years and never before realized that both had the same line.

Hey guys - there must be some great self pics flying around of cute guys in underwear! Don't all be keeping them to yourself? There's enough cute guys out there - should be some great self pic galleries!

i love to suck cocks that is my all time favorite thing to do. i like to suck entill i feel you sqirt your candy cream inside my mouth.

I really like this boy model jagar from modelteenz does anyone have more pictures of him?

Hi babe! I am so lonely and horny right now. I need a young sexy rock hard body to fulfill my every desire. I want to to feel your hard cock inside me. I want your hand to touch me in all the right places. I want you to cum all over me. let me eat that cum of your. Talk sweet but dirty to me babe. I need you, I want you. I don't want to let you go. Do you want me babe? Do you want to chat and wank so hard to me that I taste that sweet juicey cum? Send me a message

Anyone know this guy's name?     Maybe if there are more videos of him?     I know of one other.       He is fucking stunningly gorgeous!     :0

 

 

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I have about 30 porn DVD's that I want to share with the members. To do so involves ripping and converting them into small uploadable files. What is the max file size for this site?, and can I upload **.flv files?

How to make that a long Cumshoot? How Days wait for more in Balls?

im adding my post to boston globe and a few other places about the issue of chick fil a and the esteemed mayor of beantown. something wrong with his bean! disagree with me but im sick of kids killin themselfs while our big associations spend millions on the issue of gettin hitched up. i am putting the post it on me own profile later after dance class, but you can find it here with my pic and full name: http://news.yahoo.com/chick-fil-sandwiches-become-political-symbol-203947966--finance.html

I lately been running into bottoms that don't like anal sex ummm what's up with that?

Was just reading this in the newspaper - http://www.nzherald.co.nz/world/news/article.cfm?c_id=2&objectid=10840517 "Timothy Kurek grew up hating homosexuality. As a conservative Christian deep in America's "Bible Belt", he was taught that being gay was an abomination before God. He went to his right-wing church, saw himself as a soldier for Christ and attended Liberty University, the "evangelical West Point". But when a Christian friend in a karaoke bar told him how her family had kicked her out when she revealed she was a lesbian, Kurek began to question his beliefs. Amazingly, the 26-year-old decided to "walk in the shoes" of a gay person in the United States by pretending to be homosexual. For an entire year Kurek lived "undercover" as a gay man in his hometown of Nashville, Tennessee. He told his family he was gay, as well as his friends and his church. Only two pals and an aunt - used to keep an eye on how his mother coped with the news - knew his secret. One friend, a gay man called Shawn - whom Kurek describes as a "big, black, burly teddy bear" - pretended to be his boyfriend. Kurek got a job in a gay cafe, hung out in gay bars and joined a gay softball league, all the while maintaining his inner identity as a straight Christian. The result was a remarkable book, The Cross in the Closet, which follows the tradition of such works as Black Like Me, by a white man in the 1960s Deep South passing as a black American, and 2006's Self-Made Man, by Norah Vincent, who details her time in disguise living as a man. "In order to walk in their shoes, I had to have the experience of being gay. I had to come out to my friends and family and the world as a gay man," Kurek said. His account of his year being gay is an emotional, honest and at times hilarious account of a journey that begins with him as a strait-laced yet questioning conservative, and ends with him reaffirming his faith while embracing the cause of gay equality. Along the way he sheds many friends, especially from Liberty, who emailed him after he came out asking him to repent his sins and warning that he faced damnation. He does not regret their loss. "I now have lots of new gay friends," Kurek said. But it was not a straightforward journey. Early on Kurek decided to acclimatise by visiting a gay nightclub. Entering alone, he soon found himself dragged on to the dance floor by a shirtless muscular man covered in baby oil and glitter. As they danced to Beyonce, the man pretended to ride Kurek like a horse to the disco music and called him a "bucking bronco". It was all a bit too much, too soon. "I want to vomit. I need a cigarette. I feel like beating the hell out of him," Kurek writes. But soon things started going better. To avoid unwanted passes, Kurek recruited Shawn to act as a faithful boyfriend and he rapidly became part of the Nashville gay scene. He explored gay culture and found it to be as diverse and interesting as any other slice of American life. In one gay bar, Kurek was stunned to discover gay Christians earnestly discussing their belief in creationism. "I found gay Christians more devout than me!" Kurek says. He became active in a gay rights group and wound up joining a protest outside the Vatican's embassy to the United Nations in New York. However, there was a cost. To gauge his mother's true reaction to the news that her son was gay, Kurek read her private journal. In it he found that she had written: "I'd rather have found out from a doctor that I had terminal cancer than I have a gay son." But Kurek's journey also became hers. Eventually she was won over and changed her views. "My [mother] went from being a very conservative Christian to being an ally to the gay community. I am very proud of her," he said. Kurek also experienced firsthand being called abusive names. Though he himself had once called gay protesters at Liberty "fags", he found himself on the other side of the fence. During a softball practice in Nashville, a man walking his dogs called Kurek and his teammates "faggots". Kurek had to be restrained from confronting the man and then broke down in tears at the shock. "When I was first called that for real, I lost it. I saw red. I felt so violated by that word," he said. Finally Kurek's journey ended when he revealed his secret life and "came out" again, but this time as a straight Christian. However, he says one of the most surprising elements of his journey was that it renewed his religious faith rather than undermined it. "Being gay for a year saved my faith." Kurek feels his experience should not only show conservative Christians that gay people need equal rights and can be devout too, but can also reveal another side of evangelicals to the gay community. "The vast majority of conservative Christians are not hateful bigots at all. It is just a vocal minority that gets noticed and attracts all the attention."

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