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Ive read these blogs and this site for a few months but its the first time ive written anything, i just really need to vent and want someone to listen to what im going through. Im in the most complicated situation i can imagine and i dont know how to deal with it. I'm not at all the typical person you'd think youd find on this website. I'm 19 years old, go to a fairly large american university in the midwest, and im part of a top-rated frat at my school. I've considered myself bi since freshman year of high school and sure Ive had a few guy crushes over the years but Ive lived the straightest of straight lives and had numerous crushes on girls. If you knew me you'd never think i was bi or anything, i play sports, party with my boys, flirt up lots of pretty girls, and live in an environment thats not really open to this. I dont even consider myself a super open minded person, to be honest and I dont mean to offend anyone on here im not really a big fan of gay culture and i find flamboyant gay people to be kind of annoying. I have beautiful girls throwing themselves at me on a nightly basis and Ive had sex with double digits in the girl category. Im about 5'10". skinny, blond hair, not to be conceited but i consider myself pretty damn good looking. Never done a thing with a guy. My liking of both guys and girls hadnt turned into a problem i had managed it well up to this point and assumed id grow out of it My best friend for the last year plus (hes about my size, brown hair, gorgeous eyes, funniest and most charming person ive ever met) Id literally had no feelings for, zero tension whatsoever, id thought he was handsome and what not but he was just my best friend and everything was fine, until last september when we flew down to disney world and i dont know if it was the magical setting or whatever but when we were walking around epcot at night it just clicked for me and it hit me then and there, i was completely in love with my best friend... seriously out of nowhere i went from a completely platonic relationship with him, to being SO sexually attracted to him and completely in love with his personality and everything about him. Since that day its driving me crazy because i know he is straighter than straight, hooks up with girls all the time, makes fun of gay people, etc. Every time he tells me about whatever girl he got with, or ditches me when were at a bar to go hit on girls, it just gets me really sad and depressed. As much as I tell myself i cant be thinking things like this about my best friend and know it to be true everytime im around him if i even look at him or hear someone say his name it sends a shiver through my entire body. Lately its getting to the point that i cant even act like my normal self around him and i cant tell whether or not hes starting to pick up on me acting weird but i feel like he is. I understand that in all likelyhood nothing will ever happen between us, but hes just so charming and lovable and beautiful that every time i see him i fall back in love again... as i said the mere mention of his name sends a chill down my spine, when im waiting for him to respond to text messages (it could literally be about where we wanna go for dinner) i wait with anticipation like im waiting to hear if i won the lottery or not. A month ago we were having a real heart to heart conversation (not anything sexual) and when we were finished we watched on-demand and he just happens to put on an episode of american dad where the football players son comes out to his dad. The whole episode i noticed he kept looking over at me to see how i was reacting. When it ended neither of us said a word i just walked out of his room and was like night man and went home. It's ruining my relationship with my best friend but i cant help it, its just how i feel. Given the social stigma of being in a frat i know i cant just straight up tell my friends how i feel, they would never treat me the same way again, and its not because theyre evil its just the way it goes. Not that they'd even stop being friends with me, thats not the case, I'd just lose my status in their eyes as one of the "guys" and id forever have an asterisk next to my name. My friend already pretty much avoids the handful of outed-kids in the frat like they have a disease. Im left with two options. I could not say anything and keep going on, but the last week or two its just becoming too much to take i cant go five seconds without thinking of the kid. I cant sleep at night because all i want is for him to be there next to me. All i want is to just hold onto him and tell him exactly how i feel but i know that if i do that he'll probably never want to talk to me again and Ill lose my best friend. It wouldn't just be me telling him im bi, it would be me telling him im in love with him and cant get him off my mind and want him both personally and sexually. Its just hard to come to terms with the fact that hes completely straight because other than sexual stuff, he is perfect. Since the day it all clicked and i realized how i felt about him i really havent had any interest in girls anymore, its pretty much known that i havent done anything with a girl in the last six or seven months. I dont know what to think, I eventually want to grow up and get married to a girl and have a family, but for now I just cant think about anyone but him. I've never brought any of this up to a soul, not even on the web. I just dont know how to handle this and maybe venting on here will release a bit of stress. Im around him every day and every time it gets more stressful and harder for me to hold back. ill be sittin next to him on my couch watching tv and i have to constantly remind myself i cant just jump on him whenever i want to. I go to bed at night with him on my mind and wake up every morning to the sad realization that it was just a dream and im the only one in my bed. I read the recent blogs on here about guys who were friends with someone for awhile and had a crush on them and they find out that person feels the exact same way, and i get jealous and would give anything for that to be me. Any advice would be great, thanks for listening to my latenight ramblings

At first I thought it was my desk top, but now I'm on my laptop. Am I the only one having problems with videos loading? You're watching an interesting video and a few second or minutes later into it, there's a loading countdown. Makes me so mad! Is it me or is anyone else having this problem. There are some really good videos I want to see but I just have to give up looking at them. Thanks guys.

ZOMBIES....lol I think they still think that I'm lying. These people must be a bunch of homophobic lesbian and gay haters. Really starting to look like as if all that is going on around me RIGHT now is the result of my first time EVER looking at pornography online. Or it's goy something to do with what they keep showing to me a "No,Red". I say if they are homophobic fucks. "FUCK IT ALL. FUCK THIS WORLD. FUCK EVERYTHING THAT I STAND FOR. I DON'T BELONG. DON'T EXIST. DON'T EVER JUDGE ME". IF they don't like it the idea of me being gay. They can all die. Wish a nuke would fall over this place. Shut them all up. Xox love you GBT

I have been traversing the internet universe for several years—first as a gay teen, and now as a gay man. I would constantly be asking myself: “Is this the right site for me? Are there any others out there more suitable?” It can extremely frustrating!! Throughout the years, I came across such websites from Myspace.com to Facebook.com; OkCupid.com to PoF.com; and Adam4Adam.com to GayBoysTube.com. There are tons of sites out there for the Gay community—all with their own function. It is either… The right dating site. OR The right social network. And so on… The internet continues to get larger and larger, and all who take part in it are welcome! But some can struggle! Do you think you struggle to keep up with all that is available for the Gay community online? I am HUGE into socializing on the internet, but who isn’t now these days! I mostly use Facebook — but now I even have it and other social networks on my phone! But I also like to interact with the Gay community exclusively. So, I was searching for a guide or tutorial of some sort, right?! To help me find places that I may be missing out on. In my search, I came across a book: The Gay Internet Guide. It is really self-explanatory… Find it here: http://ae19aw8sxf2wqs5zy40pwcp283.hop.clickbank.net/ The guide covers a lot of internet issues and information that helped me out as a gay man on the internet. This is also an ideal book aimed for the gay internet newbies, covering issues such as anonymity, dealing with stalkers, and handling attacks. The Gay Internet Guide lists several social media sites dedicated to gay-specific social networks, and how to make the most of these networks. There is also a list of sites aimed at dating, hook-ups, long-term relationships, dating advice, and safety when dating. It really seems to have everything I need to use the internet to its full potential as part of the online Gay community. You can also read up on other gay topics like: music, movies and television, books and magazines, and gossip. It includes gay rights organizations that you can contact so that you can involve yourself even further in the Gay community online. This list extends nationally, as well as internationally. This book gave me everything I needed to interact with the Gay community both online and offline. The best part about it was I didn’t have to wait for the book to be shipped to me because it also comes as an E-book—I started reading that very night! =D I recommend this internet guide to anyone! Get OUT! Find it here: http://ae19aw8sxf2wqs5zy40pwcp283.hop.clickbank.net/ The internet is a vast, exciting universe for the Gay community as well! There is probably more out there than you realize! Happy Socializing! =D <3 <3 <3 <3

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Thousands of Dutch Catholics are researching how they can leave the church in protest at its opposition to gay marriage, according to the creator of a website aimed at helping them find the information. Tom Roes, whose website allows people to download the documents needed to leave the church, said traffic on ontdopen.nl had soared from about 10 visits a day to more than 10,000 after Pope Benedict's latest denunciation of gay marriage. "Of course it's not possible to be 'de-baptised' because a baptism is an event, but this way people can unsubscribe or de-register themselves as Catholics," Roes told Reuters. He said he did not know how many visitors to the site actually go ahead and leave the church. About 28 per cent of the population in the Netherlands is Catholic and 18 per cent is Protestant, while a much larger proportion - roughly 44 per cent - is not religious, according to official statistics. The country is famous for its liberal attitudes, for example to drugs and prostitution, and in April 2001 it was the first in the world to legalise same-sex marriages. In a Christmas address to Vatican officials, the pope signaled the he was ready to forge alliances with other religions against gay marriage, saying the family was threatened "to its foundations" by attempts to change its "true structure". Roes, a television director, said he left the church and set up his website partly because he was angry about the way the church downplayed or covered-up sexual abuse in Catholic orphanages, boarding schools and seminaries. A report by an independent commission published a year ago said there had been tens of thousands of victims of child sexual abuse in the Netherlands since 1945 and criticized the church's culture of silence. Ad Feedback - Reuters

Does anybody else get turned on by a young guys and by young I mean of legal age I am not into children, but by a young guys armpit hair? When I like hang out in the quad and there are guys sitting around in the "wife beaters" and they have these deep armpits with just a nice touch of hair sticking out I start to get hard. Is that just me or is this common? Now when I see some dude from Gorilla land and he has hair long enough to braid it turns me off but the 20ish guys when they stretch and the hair is neatly trimmed OMG, am I a perv?

I will be visiting Las Vegas from Saturday March 2nd for a week. If anyone fancies meeting up for a beer or anything please let me know. It's been a year since I was last in sin city and I'm looking forward to returning. Anyone got any good stories on Las Vegas?

hope Andy can win the miami classic, he was looking so hunky on the news today, anyone for tennis

What an amazing day we had!! Holland is truly a country where community is number one. The celebration of the new King spills out into the streets everywhere and now Paul Van Duke playing riverfront for the new King, ourselves and over a hundred thousand people will be unforgettable!! we travelled all night on the train from Prague to Amsterdam to get there and then traveled all night that same day to get back in time for school so we would only miss one day it was well worth the experience amazing we will never forget it

listen...I have to go to work..its Friday...don't touch the stove...there is stuff in the frig...here is 2 dollars....play outside...don't bring a bunch of kids in here...love you..daddy..

For me, when some marker is achieved, it seems I always reflect on the journey. And having arrived at 700 days here on GBT, it seemed appropriate to reflect on that time. Like many, I came here to find porn. Which I did find in abundance. And, eventually felt that I should contribute to the site. The work Nick does is admirable for a free site, but it is dependent upon its members and users to have a credible library of videos and pictures that appeal to people and keep them here. So nearly 2,500 uploaded videos later, I hope I have added to the diversity of things to entertain people. However, that being said, I find I spend much time to find videos, download them, edit and then upload them. And, like many I know the frustration of not always seeing things posted. It goes with the territory and is just the way it is, although it seems to have gotten worse over the last few weeks. And I think I may take a break from the video upload part of my membership for a while. After some time, I realized that there was an entire community of people that were socially engaged with each other. Some purely about sex, and others about sharing their lives and experiences with people. Actually becoming friends and parts of each other lives. And supporting each other in times of stress and need. That part of GBT has been a wonderful place to be. I have encountered so many kind and wonderful people. Some of who came into my life, and then left. Some because their lives changed and others because they had played their games and had their fun and moved on. There are also those that have become part of the fabric of my day, I will not list them, for fear of missing someone and I hope that you know who you are, but many are now part of my life away from GBT. Like all communities, there is a cycle of the friendships, they ebb and flow over time. Some, once close are now just an acquaintance, not always for reasons clear to me. But such is life both here and in the real world. And that cycle of ebbing seems strong lately, and it causes me to wonder, is this where my time should go each day. For as we all know, it take time to try to touch those we care about. I do not regret any of the time in the last 700 days, but am not clear if there is another 700 for me in the future. I think it is a day at a time proposition for now. Clarity in life is not something you create, it comes to you on its own schedule and in its own way. No need for anyone to comment. Not looking for pleas to stay, or kind words, or a push to go. Just wanted to share how I felt. So many have made me feel so good to be here. And to those that chose to make it painful, I hope you enjoyed it as well.

<p>How would i do it? Doesit ppay well? Do you have to be a certain height or anythin?</p>

<p>Today is my 500 day and i just wanted to say thanks for all the great times I had here at GBT. Thanks you all and big hugs to you all too.</p>

<p>Really don't know how to use a Blog or what kind of stuff to Post. Someone give me some ideas here.</p>

<p>I want to upload some photos, but i can't. It keeps saying it needs to be in a different format. When i try changing the format, it doesn't allow me to. Help?</p>

<p>Hope all my friends had a lovely time at the weekend, it will soon be someones birthday, a very close friend indeed. love and hugs scott, and least i forget, if anyone didnt have a nice weekend, I will share my love with you too, xx scott</p>

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