Blogs, Page 170

I was thinking recently about the people in my life, and those who aren't there now. people always say how much they regretted not saying something before it was too late. I cant remember ever being told I was loved as a child, maybe it happened, but it was mot something I remember, and believe me I have tried .. You see it on a present sometimes ... with love from... never was told to my face. The first person who I told loved had killed himself two years later. We tried to be happy , secretly.. and I know we were! Times were hard for gay people then, in fact near impossible. people were attacked all the time. he could face living that life of fear and denial. Shortly after that several people I knew died suddenly, a boy from the house over the road killed himself, we think he was gay, another crashed his motorbike, another leuchemia... I came to know that life is fragile, its here one moment and then gone, just like that, doesnt matter how old you are. If I had children (not much chance) I would tell them how much I love them - all the time. And prove it. I know my folks were from difficult backgrounds and they dont express emotion much at all.. maybe thats why they couldn't tell me. But its made it harder for me to deal with emotional situations, like when my friend/lover killed himself and left me alone I couldn't say I was hurting becaue it was both secret and terrifying at the same time. Thats why i couldn't be me.. and come out - for so long. I tell my partner "I love you" quite a lot now.. still could be more, but I am getting better at it. I tried to tell myself Dont be afraid to love just because you can get hurt (if it goes wrong or you are left alone). All the years of bullying and fear of dicovery plus the suppressed emotions and grief came out unexpectedly and for a while i was quite nihilistic and angry but never knew why. Now I get flashbacks from when i was younger still, really intence sometimes never nice... allways fear and guilt and pain. This is what happens when love is denied, i couldn't process the emotions so i locked them away for years. Became withdrawn and shy , quiet and reluctant to try new things for a while. It took several years, some big shocks, like beingpenniless and homeless in London and later getting a serious desease that took five years to recover partialy from to shake me out of my shell, and realise that life is what you make it for yourself. make it happier? When I decided to come out I unlocked the last obstacle that was holding back the flood. Both the good and the bad all came out. Here I am now four months later, still very happy plus flashbacks and love and questions (which is good) Dont be afraid to love, and saying it could even make it happen. If You knew how hard it is for me to talk about these things then you would know how important it is to say it. "i love you"

Can someone tell me how I can move a pic(file) from one of my folders to another site, Like an email, or to add to one of my favorites? I never have figured this out yet.

Me and The Chav xx I was given the job of looking after this woman’s dog, in truth I lived up the road, so it wasn’t a stretch of the imagination that id be the one she picked. Mainly because I’ve got one already and she knew me from the shop she used to work in, she worked behind the till of my local newspaper shop. So I thought well why not,. She offered me 20 quid for the week, but the sweetener for the deal was “my sons sometimes in, but he’s unreliable, so I’d rather have someone I know going in. He’s 18 and he’ll try to get off work and get his mates round they hang out, he’s a bit of chav, “ Fuck me I thought, there’s nowt better than a trackie lad, they’re so hot and horny, there’s loads of the fuckers round here, tight arses, hint of boxers, showing. Hands down their undies. I love em. So I said oh aye I’ll do it. I’ve always loved the undies, its the fact you can feel if a lads just been in em, nice and warm, and i love wanking in em, over the years I’ve nicked loads so i thought well I can look after the dog, walks, and feeds and that, and maybe just maybe, get a pair of his undies while I’m at it. So I went in the house. I was racing inside. Walked the dog. Then there on the wall was a huge picture of this lad, and he was cute, not what you’d call like a Hollywood hunk , just a lad off the estate but cheeky looking. Just my type. So I gets back in after the walk, and race up to his bedroom, its shut, I think fucking hell, I cant go in, if he’s in it ll look weird, what can i do, could say I couldn’t find the upstairs toilet and just wander in. Fuck it, me cock was rock solid, im ganna do it, I thought. So I went in, trackies all over the bedroom floor, ashtrays full of cig dumpers. Stunk of teenage lad. So there I was his single bed still warm, the picture of his and his crew hanging above the bed, all the lads all that jizz in em, fuck me I’d love to take everyone of their horny chav cocks in me mouth. I went into his draw and their they were all types of boxers, Mckenzies, Lonsdales, etc etc, Theyre was a pair of grey Pierre Cardins, tight briefs things, I choose them, I wanted to go back home and wank off, but i thought fuck it Im ganna wank me load in his undies and lie on his bed sniffing his pair of warm undies, I was shouting “you fucking horny bastard, id love your fat cock stuck right in me mouth, id love to suck you dry, I want ya fucking cum.” Wanked off, came loads. This went on for a while, wanking on his bed and that Then one day I ran upto his room wanted a wank on his bed, and he was in, shit, so i walked the dog, and then, came back in. I thought oh ill make it look like im using the lav, so i did only this time he was lying not on his side, but on his back, i stared for ages, just looking at him, so hot. Then he wakes so im like “oh I was just going to say, the dogs not feeling too well,” The worse lie ever, he looked and smiled “aye allllllllllllllright mate.” Grabbed a tab. He was so cute smiling as he talked about work and that, no top on, his body not muscle but nice defined. I licked me lips, and stared at his bulge, i could see his hand shuffling up and down, and i thought phew, i could just climb in that bed, the same one id wanked off loads on anyway. He was like “av got loads of gay mates like, me ma said you were gay.” I was like “aye, “ sheepishly. All the time staring at his tenting under the sheets, by this time you could see a little bit of movement. “Im tenting under here, like. Ya not fancy helping is out like mate, “ I nodded, he pulled back the sheets, his cock was gorgeous 8 inches and a nice bit of fur going on he stroked it, and I was like handed him his undies to stick back on, so he did, saw them passing over his lovely tight little chav arse. I started sucking thru his tight boxers, licking his nuts, giving his hungry man pussy a bit of lick, and licking one side of his cock and then licking the other, but teasing him right up he loved it. Then I pulled out his cock and i sucked it all the way down, deep throating him. I loved it, played with his nuts, sucked his cock, licked his balls wanked him off, the lot “thats fucking great mate, Im ganna blow me fucking jizz all over ya soon like.” So I went back to sucking i wanted his cum in me mouth, and he shot the lot in, emptied his balls right in me mouth moaning as he did it, it was the best horniest nosh id ever given. I watched his balls as they drew back, I loved it, so did he. Me a man in his 40’s sucking on an 18 year old chav who could ask for more. .....

I personally bottom about 30% of the time, I really enjoy bottoming but prefer to top. What are everyone else's percentages?

Well...it's that time of the year again...the time where we all get what we've been waiting for...presents...because it's almost CHRISTMAS!!! So....what do you want Santa to leave you under the tree this year??? I already told him what I wanted ;).....I might be willing to share on here what I told Santa.....maybe. lol.

6 Days and counting :P

i`d like to meet a young man in so.cal. area that don`t mind an older not so hot guy,all i have is kindness,in know how to pleasure a young man,i`m into boyish small petite men i have seem them in vids,n e 1 in the

There are only 75 left in the wild... I signed the petition to save them from sure extinction if people don't take a stand... and take a stand NOW!!! http://www.avaaz.org/en/petition/Save_the_Mexican_Gray_Wolves_from_Extinction/?cbuADcb

I love watching young horny teen boys - alone, together with other boys or with older men. http://www.mediafire.com/?8t6616hw31ew6d0,n831ukhbbhv9e1b,etzc6w73156cinw,lnlonh8948ue799,3x0lfv0mdf4l3st,hzlko9qjy6585cc,f7zqlk0bpl9sotb,dum29jey0h6lcfl,c9ambac80owbwjy,cmf6lfymz4ax9s9

Algum brasileiro?

Something that you've never told anyone before. Ever!

<p>since 3 days I did umload one or 2 vids a day, but no one is visible here. Is there anyone with the same problem?</p> <p>all my uploads have been confirmed as succesful.</p>

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<p>i agree there should be a chat room on tghis site just like gaydar dose would be so good</p>

<p>Lets hope and pray that Jordan will be ok.

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<p style="text-align: center;"><img src="https://i.minus.com/ibsCxRhWylN92I.jpg" alt="" width="406" height="315" /></p> <p style="text-align: center;"><strong>Her LGBT show of support is SO Clever. :)</strong></p>

<p>How do you block someone on this site that is posting annoying wall messages?</p>

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