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Sunday May 27, was the day my father died. A day that started like any other but went on and on and never seemed to want to end. It was the longest and yet the shortest day of my life. And as the terror of it passed to memory so the hate grew and took it's place. Hate of those who came to the house to speak of his death, hate of those who may have been partly responsible, hate of those who saw him last, hate of everything. And most frightening of all was my hatred of him for leaving me. When I went to see him as he lay at rest in his coffin the look on his face made me smile. It was a look I was very familiar with and looking back it was an expression I am glad was his last. It was the look he gave when he was pissed off. I think it was a very fitting last look. One that I am happy to remember, because it's brought closure in a strange way. It's as if he knows he's dead and it pisses him off. There are some things that Thomas and others have said to me lately that have brought me out of the shadows. They have managed to get through to me where my family and friends never quite could. The internet is a great tool and can be used for a multitude of things. In my case it has been a good counseling tool. I sought to escape from reallity into this virtual world where actions have no consequence and where it can end at the press of a button. Like the holodeck on the Enterprise, "computer, end programme". But actions have consequences and there is no place for rudeness nor unfriendly behaviour. So I offer my appologies to all those people I have rejected as friends. It was a very selfish attitude and a very immature attitude. There is a definate advantage to having virtual friends. It was my friends here in GBT that drew me out from the dark. It never really dawned on me that there was something wrong with my attitude to people in the real world untill I realised I was doing wrong here in cyberspace. My ginger friend said I had become more aggresive and distant, others mentioned the same. But I was oblivious till now. It was the message on my wall from thomas that knocked some sense into me. Writing this blog has has certainly been good and has cleared my head and I can feel a weight lifted from me. I could easliy ramble on and on but I feel now that I have said I've been mistaken about the virtues of virtual friendships I feel better. The next thing I need to do is to drink less. My alcohol consumption has gone over the top. I have consumed nearly all of my fathers whisky. My motherr does not know how much he had. But I'm only 18 and my liver can recover...lol. So, in closing this meassge/blog, I will stop rejecting friendship requests and thank Thomas et al for saving me from my demons.

here is a hot vid http://www.gayboystube.com/video/185483/bhwd but the song they play. the name escapes me. dose anyone know the song name or artist?

my life is really bad at the moment and i feel so weak and ill because of it, i dont know if im doin the right thing or not but my heart and mind are set on the 2 that so important to me but im sooo scared that im goin lose my flesh and blood forever :(:(:(:(

I missed all the friends I made on here and the community spirit, it made life a bit easier to get through.

Ok guys. I'm from Virginia and ive had such a difficult time with bfs and stuff. No one actually wants to date but maybe a momth I'm looking for a guy who is as loving as I am and wont screw anyone over. No lower than 14 no higher than 19. I'm young. Cheack out my profile. If ur interested or know someone that might be hmu please. I'm tired of being alone... </3

Wheres a good place to meet people to hook up? Craigslist?

whats the best state in the usa, to meet people for a lovely chat and share a cup of coffee

After I download a video, most of them wont play. I have a shit load of different players that cover all formats.I get errors that say format is no good or file is corrupt. What going on......... Thanks in advance, Bill

<p>I chatted with Johnyb25 many times and he posted on my wall too just recently but now his account is gone. Anyone know whats happening?</p>

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<p>sorry i havent posted anything in a while school has been getting in the way ill try and get more posted soon

<p>I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for adding me as a friend on here cheers guys</p>

<p>Hey friends on GBT,</p> <p>I have a problem... kinda.</p> <p>Im realy into eating my own cum, I see video's of people doing it. That makes me so horny to try it. The only thing is when im wanking and im cumming I just don't want to do it anymore... And that really pisses me off.</p> <p>I have tried forcing my self in doing it but I still can't.</p> <p>I tried put your cock above your mouth.. but at the moment im gonna cum I put my legs back down... so that doesn't work aswell.</p> <p>Can any one of you tell me how I can do it... Have some tips or something?...</p> <p>(As long as I can't eat someone else's cum because I have no boyfriend, I have to do mine)</p> <p>

<p>I was just reading and commenting on a post about number of times jacking off. I was wondering how long anyone can last while jacking off? I have to qualify it I guess as jacking yourself off instead of someone helping as I last much longer that way. I'm not positive as I never thought to time it but I think around an hour is my longest. I had to stop repeatedly so I wouldn't cum but the result was incredible both in volume and intensity. And lots and lots of precum along the way. So what about everyone else? Any imput on lasting even longer? Or do you hit a point where its no longer worth it to delay?</p>

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CONGRATS TO ONE OF OUR OLDEST MEMBERS<br /><br /><img src="http://i.imgur.com/4a9OiVH.jpg" alt="" width="540" height="355" /><br /><br />

<p>giving all my friends loads of love and affection</p>

<p>billy you are my friend, who I love very much and will always be here for you, love scott</p>