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I've been woke this morning by a dream, this dream was about my mom but I already forgot what was my dream. Why do we forgot the dream we have when we sleep? It seemed so real, maybe that's why we called it a dream. Dreams are the messengers of our unconscious and I like to think that my Mom was talking to me this morning. 

Six years, you were only 40 yo and I still don't understand why and not sure I want to find the answer. There's so many things I would like to tell you Mom but I'm sure you know what I want to tell you. You were able to read in me like in an open book. Why I didn't tell you these things when You were with us ? Probably because we think that you will be there forever. 

It has been six years since you left us and it seems to me an eternity, suffering is terribly present in me even today.

 Sometimes I feel like you're still here with us and I can call you to talk with you or go visit you only to talk with you just like we were doing when I was still a child. 

However after these moments of illusion, reality strikes me in the face and my little heart bursts leaving the pain to seize my being. You're no longer there to talk, laugh or going mad at me Mom. My beloved companion, my best friend, my beloved Mother is no longer there to share, to listen to me, to console me, to encourage me, to support me. You were so important to me and especially since Papa's death.

I know that after all this time I should feel better but when I think about the relationship we both had, I understand. I understand why you miss me and why I feel like my world is collapsing. You were the center of my life. You were everything to me Mom. You have given me love, tenderness, security, strength, happiness and all that a child may need X 1000. Your presence, your support, your patience, your admiration, your understanding, your listening and the thousands of magnificent qualities you had allowed me to live a life of the most magnificent. You gave me everything, Mom, you were a formidable Mother and a friend out of the ordinary. What more could a life ask?

 Then this is Mother, why today  I still miss you so much and I suffer so much from your absence. As painful as  your absence can be, the 40 years that you spent with us were worth it.

 I would love to hold you in my arms Mom and tell you how much I love you. Happy Mother's Day Mom.

 Guys, call your Mom today and tell her how much you love her, don't wait that it's too late