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There comes a time when one stops and thinks about about how life is going. I have done so much with my life and yet feel as though i h ave nothing to show for it, except pain. Being almost 30, I have traveled the world, Raced in every form of racing (that involve cars), "Fought for my country", Owned houses, Auto Shops, Many Cars and gave most of my life to others. In the end, I'm stuck with Urinary Incontinence, a shoulder that Just got fixed after 11yrs, and Epilepsy... oh lets not forget I'm Autistic (Asperger's Syndrome). Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that I have it worse then anyone else, because I know that's not the case. What I will say is that I have been afforded the chance to learn from many things and many people. I know that in time my life will right it's self, but in the mean time I am not what one would call happy. That being said...

Many of you look at your life and think just the way I just did, Right? Things are not going well, It seems like nothing is going to plan, or maybe you think that life is just one big routine. I have learned that this way of thinking is not completely true... Lets Take My Asperger's Syndrome as an example, I have problems with large crowds (3 ), Textures, and Social Ques. Instead of allowing all of those issues get in my way I learned to adapt to my situations, If I get overwhelmed in a crowd type environment, I simply excuse myself from the area, go and calm down, than try again. I haven't got anywhere on the Texture area yet... etc. Point being... I try and try and try until I find a way that works for me. which makes me think of Vince Lombardi- " I am not remotely interested in just being good, but am in the relentless pursuit of perfection, fully knowing I will never achieve it, but in the process I will exceed Excellence." Words that can be taken to heart. For some, my problems will not be anywhere close to what is being dealt with in their own lives, but the basic principle is still there. And Lets face it You could be like me and Have to wear diapers 24/7. Just Remember... You Can't Change Yesterday, It's the PAST... Today is for Learning and Making Mistakes... So Tomorrow We Can Make A Better Future.