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@beastboy... posted by Phallussy...
"Whether you are young or mature, we all go out into the world and face much discrimination everyday from diverse groups of ppl in society. Young LGBT ppl who are still in school have it particularly rough. Peer and social pressures are brutal for so many of you, and during a crucial time in you're lives when you're still trying to understand yourself, or trying to accept who you are. It's not easy. Harassment, bullying and discrimination are too often neglected and unprotected by the institutions that are responsible for your care. Don't EVER give up. Don't EVER think you are second class. There is nothing wrong with you. You are a beautiful person created the way you are.....and who you are....for a purpose! You are too special to become another statistic. You do not have to face your situation alone. We all need to talk with supportive friends sometimes, because, there, you will find understanding, and the acceptance that you desire.....that we ALL need. It's a very healing experience for your soul, and it will recharge your batteries. No one has all of the answers for you, but finding some 'ME' time, regularly, to talk with supportive friends, will help you figure things out. Ask different ppl about their experiences. Find out how they handled their situations, what worked and didn't work for them. They can give you fresh ideas, new ways of approach, and encouragement, to help you choose which path is the best one to take for your particular situation. If you need someone to talk to find a supportive friend here or just click on one of the many logo help links in his profile"

The lost of my Dad and Mom ....SAM xxx

The day my Dad walked out of my life when i was 6.

My lowest point had to be after my mom died, I was 7 then around 10 my dad said I was useless and would never amount to anything.

The lowest point of my life was October 31, 1995...I had quit a job after 5 months, unable to stand the homophobic abuse any longer...Working there was just awful - being accused of all manner of things on a daily basis from paedophilia, to rape, to lusting after colleagues (one chap who thought I lusted after him was in his late 50s!), threatened with violence....The most concerning thing was constantly being 'set up' - someone would claim something had been stolen and it would be found in my desk; anonymous insulting letters would be sent to customers - I was the prime suspect; cheques (checks) arriving in the mail would not be deposited into the bank - I was accused of stealing them...(you get the general idea)...And worst of all is rumours being spread throughout my industry (ie: people at competitor companies all heard the stories and believed them, pretty much destroying any reputation I may have had - despite it all being made up)...October 31 was a Tuesday and it had been a holiday weekend in my country, during which time I did a lot of soul searching and made the decision to go into work on the Tuesday and simply quit, unable to live like that any longer... I felt such a failure (quitting being foreign to my nature), and angry at the injustice of it all....However, they say every cloud has a silver lining and that evening, when I was sitting at home in a state of despair and self pity, news came over the radio that the New Zealand socialist politician Bill Rowling had died (and that his death had been slow and painful) - so I immediately cheered up and went out to celebrate! LOL

This last month has been one constant struggle to even bother living. I'm feeling barely any better, but I still push on.

There is not need to feel "down"... life is good and full of misteries!!! "Why we fall? Soo, we can Pull ourselves up"!!! thats the point.!!!! Im here, as many other lovely and kind guys here, that you can talk and share your feeling to, without getting Hurt...!!! Dont warry my friend... life is a shit, but we can make it better, its our choise!!! :P Love, as always, Ross ^__^

PM if you want to chat. I don't come close to having all the answers to life but I can listen.....HUGS, Andy

@TheCheshireCat thanks for that post. I must tell you I have spoken to quite a number of people on here that have shared their story privately with me, and I with them, it is amazing how your thoughts ring so true with may of us..by surviving and sharing our stories we demonstrate that it does get better, IF we pursue, and give life a chance. hugz to ya for posting that paparon xoxo

hello my friend I'm sorry to hear you are down.. remember we can't change the past...no point on dwelling on it ..look to the future for brighter days ... it does get better!....and add ne to the ones who have private you...you can contact me private and talk...hugz paparon xoxo

When I was about 5, my "rents" told me I was adopted. Later I learned I was "a mistake of nature". For a long time I felt that my biological rents ditched me because they could tell from the way I cried as a baby that I was gay. That led to some very black thoughts as a young teen. Somehow I fumbled my way through the "trough" and just sort of lucked out by surviving it. That's the key thought here, survival. Going thru the fires of purgatory tempers you like steel, and you come out of it a stronger person. It has been uphill for me ever since, and I have never looked back. Life is not all cake and ice cream. You learn and grow from the good and bad times. The main thing is when you wake up each morning, you think how wonderful to be alive. It sure as hell beats the alternative! ;--)))

take care, the guys on here like Thomas, are very supportive, they all have a heart of gold, speak with them first before deciding anything

wishing you well

Dude...talk to someone. If you need help finding a resource..@usainindia can help you find them. As can others. You don't need to share here. But you do need to talk to someone so you can get through your feelings right now. Trust me...I do know

I think you're in Ireland. If so, and you're not sure about what to do, contact http://www.suicideprevention.ie/

Dude don't do anything silly that you will regret later on because you can't change the past.

Don't do anything silly, if now is the low point of your life then things can only get better. Learn from your mistakes and make your life better. If you want to PM me, please do, I promise not to judge.

Mine was watching my cousin hurt so bad because of a breakup from someone he loved. It was his first love and he took it hard. He tried to do things that made me feel so bad wanted to do something for him to get rid of the hurt. That was the low point of my life and also my cousins.

Rather not say what exactly but just thinking about some things in the past and some things getting me down the last couple of days that makes me want to do something silly

Me had to be in 2011 when I lost my job but now I been getting back on my feet slowly but life been OK. Also did you get my personal message from the other day. Also if you care to share what's wrong. You can also reply in a personal message if you don't want to share with others.

Sorry to hear that you're feeling down. My lowest point was in my teen years. May I ask what's bothering you? It may help to talk about it.