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Would be hard to prove rape in this case, from what you described ... just chalk it up to a bad first experience, and move on. I think a lot of guys (including myself ..) got caught up in the excitement (or lust) of a first sexual experience that we were totally NOT prepared for, and our lack of knowledge made that experience unpleasant. My advice ... stop freaking over STD worries and just relax. After you've calmed down, go see your doctor .. or a walk-in clinic .. and ask for a blood test for STD. Trust me ... no point in getting all worked up about "what if" scenerios. Chill ... relax ...

i got talking to him and he asked me to come back to his apartment i said sure. we started to do it but then i started telling him to stop. like he clearly knew i was in pain cos i started to cry and kept telling him to stop but he didnt. i dunno

I suggest you be careful about crying rape. You haven't given the details about the sexual encounter. Was he hiding in the bushes and just reached out, grabbed you and had his way with you? Or did you deliberately make a effort to be alone in his company and expressed interest in gay sex? What story will he tell the police? Are you prepared for a he said/he said investigation and trial where your secrets are revealed. Were you really raped or are you just trying to crawl back into denial and not take responsibility for your actions leading up to a sexual encounter that didn't go well which is what I suspect? You also admit to sucking his cock. That is a willful and deliberate act on your part. Unless you had a gun to your head, it's a little hard to make a case that it was forced. As far as your friend's advice, I wouldn't trust it. I assume he's straight and so has no conception of what it is to be gay. I also suspect that when you told him about it, you reinvented the specifics in such a way as to be able to not take any personal responsibility and thus continue being in denial. You're also pretending, to both he and yourself, that you are a victim. Again, to not take personal responsibility for who and what you are.

On the subject of AIDS, you appear to be woefully uninformed. It's highly unlikely that you got HIV from oral sex. The HIV virus is killed by both saliva and stomach acid. The only way you can get HIV from oral sex is if you have bleeding gums or open sores in your mouth. Your ignorance on the subject is behind your obsessive paranoia. In six months, get tested for HIV if that will quiet your mind but I'd be willing to bet a month's pay that you'll test negative.

aghhhhhhh so i have aids from giving him a bj? one of my best friends (only friend who knows im gay) I told hiim what happened and he said he raped me and i should tell the police.....should i? im not sure tbh sorry

aghhhhhhh so i have aids from giving him a bj? one of my best friends (only friend who knows im gay) I told hiim what happened and he said he raped me and i should tell the police.....should i? im not sure tbh sorry

aghhhhhhh so i have aids from giving him a bj? one of my best friends (only friend who knows im gay) I told hiim what happened and he said he raped me and i should tell the police.....should i? im not sure tbh sorry

aghhhhhhh so i have aids from giving him a bj? one of my best friends (only friend who knows im gay) I told hiim what happened and he said he raped me and i should tell the police.....should i? im not sure tbh sorry

A friend of mine got hiv just from sucking the other guy--not kidding. So even when doing oral it's best to wear a condom.

Reread my last post straightgayboy. I await your comments.

ah i wont see him anymore. hes brazilian and hes gone back to brazil i think. well i hopes so cos now im scared to see him incase he wants to do it again ugh

Did you go to the doctor because of the blood or did it stop by itself?

Maybe you took the wrong lover. Was he just a one time pick up or a kind of friend. An understanding lover would alwas stop if you ask him to. Especially with a first timer your partner was not kind. If he was a friend he should apologize or you should drop him

My first time was painful in the beginning, the first entry so to speak. But he pulled out immedeatley when I asked him. One minute later he tried again and I was totally relaxed and felt no more pain. It was great! So, just look forward to your next time but make sure you pick the right lover.

i did ask him to stop a few times but he didnt. he was wayyyy to rough. i never taught my first time would of been so painful that it even made me cry! is it always that painful?

Thanks guys

no aids takes a long time to show signs of and if you had sex with someone who was not a scum bag but with someone trusted you should not need to worry about that lol :)
its probably nerves or the common cold

Dude I did have 1 friend that his semen gave me the runs. I dont know what it was, but about an hour after sex with him if I swallowed or he shot in me I would have the runs. everytime. Never with anyone else. I have never understood why.

To straightgayboy: The reason I know you so well is because you are just like me and millions of others just like us. And yes, you are just like us. Anything that you're struggling with we have struggled with ourselves at some time in our lives. This is not unique to you. The first time I sucked a guy's cock and swallowed his ejaculation was absolutely thrilling and I was at a level of sexual arousal I had never experienced before. However, once I had given him my ejaculation and came back down to earth I myself started to have feelings of queeziness. It wasn't caused by the sperm in my stomach but rather by my own conflicting thoughts about who I thought I was supposed to be and who I could no longer deny that I really was. As far as finding blood in the toilet I'm going to speculate. You didn't say the type of sexual activity you engaged in but I'm guessing that he fucked you in the ass. And when he fucked you, he didn't use lubrication or take the time to relax your sphincter and open you up and instead just jammed his cock in you. Added to this was your own apprehension causing resistance to penetration. This can cause small tears which bleed. The bleeding should stop as long as it's minor but if it doesn't then seek medical attention and don't take anything more up your ass for a while. If my guess is correct, then I'm sorry that your first experience was a painful one. It shouldn't have been. The guy who fucked you either didn't know what he was doing or didn't care. Having a negative first time experience can sometimes inhibit your ability to fully enjoy it later. The first time I was fucked was by a guy who knew what he was doing and who wanted me to enjoy the experience to the fullest so we planned the fuck. We stared out the evening at his place with me taking an enema. Then we showered together and while in the shower he shaved the area smooth. We dressed, went out for dinner, and then caught a movie. This was to allow time for the natural lubrication washed out by the enema to reconstitute itself. Back at his place, we stripped naked, got into bed and engaged in foreplay for a while to heighten our levels of sexual arousal. Then it was time for the main even. I laid on my stomach with a pillow covered with a towel under my pelvis and my legs spread. He knelt behind me and wearing a surgical rubber glove you can get at any drug store, he put lube on his fingers and gently started massaging the outside of my hole until it stopped spasming and started to relax. He then inserted his finger, again using a lot of lube, and began giving me an internal massage which causes your sphincter to begin dilating. When he had two fingers gliding in and out of me easily was when I was ready. Using a rubber glove for this is important. It prevents the internal tissues from being scratched by callouses, fingernails or hangnails. He then lubed up his cock heavily, pulled off the glove, laid down and slid his cock effortlessly inside me. The feeling was absolutely magical. No pain or discomfort at all and no bleeding afterwards. It was the most wonderful feeling I ever experienced and I was totally hooked on it. So there. I've told you how it needs to be done. If your bleeding was caused by a bad fuck, you now know how to have a good fuck. Don't let one bad fuck sour you to what ecstasy awaits you with the right guy. Be well.

**** But tell me there was blood in the toilet bowl this morning. is that normal or should i go to the doctor????? ****
Peeing or crapping blood is NEVER a good thing !!! I'd go see a doctor immediately. If the guy you had sex with penetrated you, did you feel a intense pain as he entered you ? It's possible you had some anal tearing which could be causing the bleeding. Of course, this will heal, but you should really have it looked at ASAP to avoid infection ! If you are concerned about discussing the cause of the bleeding with your regular doctor, then go to a walk-in clinic, or a local emergency room instead. Go now .... please.

You're mainly just freaking out over nothing. Sorry to be so blunt but that's what it sounds like to me.

Interesting post davz85. However I think the odds of it being the cause are extremely remote although not impossible. I still believe the cause is a psychosomatic manifestation of an eighteen year old struggling with his sexual identity and the conflicts associated with it that I mentioned in my earlier post. Giving straightgayboy and organic etiology to hide behind and be in denial does him a disservice. Straightgayboy has to ultimately recognize, confront and accept who and what he is if he is ever to have a full, rich, complete and satisfying life.

''swiftjohn'' thanks for that. but how do u no me so well? you just described me perfectly there lol its kinda sad on my behalf! Im too scared to come out to myself!
But tell me there was blood in the toilet bowl this morning. is that normal or should i go to the doctor?????
Thanks for writing to me

I found this and you should read it carefully.........................................................


Semen allergy
In rare cases, people have been known to experience allergic reactions to seminal fluids, known as human seminal plasma hypersensitivity.[24] Symptoms can be either localized or systemic, and may include vaginal itching, redness, swelling, or blisters within 30 minutes of contact. They may also include generalized itching, hives, and even difficulty breathing.
One way to test for human seminal plasma sensitivity is to use a condom during intercourse. If symptoms dissipate with the use of a condom, it is possible that a sensitivity to semen is present. Mild cases of semen allergy can often be overcome by repeated exposure to seminal fluid.[25] In more severe cases, it is important to seek the advice of a physician, particularly in the event that a couple is trying to conceive, in which case, artificial insemination may be indicated.
Scientists at Utrecht University studied the condition whereby some men "get flu-like symptoms such as feverishness, runny nose, extreme fatigue and burning eyes immediately after they ejaculate. Symptoms can last for up to week."[26] This condition is termed post orgasmic illness syndrome or POIS, and it was discovered that this stemmed from an allergy to their own semen, its effects could be cured using hyposensitization therapy or allergen immunotherapy.[26]