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Kyle94 Blog Last Activity 13 years ago 1.5K views 34 comments
Im so tired of this life...I'm never gonna get anyone...I'm never gonna be happy again...from this day forward I will not be careful. In situations where I could get hurt like crossing a busy street I will not look both ways and u will walk no matter what happens...I'm tired of this hurt an I know everyone here is trying to help me and I appreciate it sooo much! But the hurt is taking me over and is gonna change me into commuting suicide...it's just a matter of time.....

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13 years ago

Tony Nicklinson died today from pneumonia after refusing food. He had "lock down sydrome" after a massive stroke. He was paralysed from the neck down.He was unable to perform the most basic of functions. His wife had to do everything for him.
He appealed to the courts for permission to have an assisted suicide. It was refused. Go to YouTube and hear his cries of anguish and pain on the verdict. Finally it was just all too much and he died.
And you are "fed up with life"? You are a joke. A sick joke..

13 years ago

I agree with Alex on this Kyle. This isn't going to get you where you need to be. While there a is a lot of support for you here. This blog is going to spin your around like a top. Talk to Alex and Toby. But take it off line. I care about you and want you to get what you need. I believe I pm'd you my chat info, so if an older voice is what you need, send me a pm and we can find time. My love to you sweet young man. Thomas xxooxxoo

Alex17
Alex17
13 years ago

Baby you should take this offline and talk . I really dont know what you are getting out of this tbh. We will talk again and i hope it cheers u up .....?

13 years ago

I'm new here man but it sounds like you need to talk to someone dude. All life is precious dont do something you cant take back!

nate88
nate88
13 years ago

Kyle; Regarding your message - it's still pitty. If your on meds or if your are in theraphy and it isn't working (apparently). Make a call to one of the centers that was researced for you. They need to know hat ever they are doing isn't working. I'm not here to beat you down - I'm trying to help you WAKE UP TO THE REAL WORLD - GET THE HELP AVAILABLE. It's ok, I'll still support you and care too but you will not find any answer here. Just a place to share and ask forsupport. YOU have to go get the REAL help. I wish you well with your problem - Andy

13 years ago

What crap!
There are so many people existing in pain with so many cancers, there are so many people with heart problems. There are so many children in so many wards in so many hospitals living each day as it passes. There are so many soldiers who have limbs missing.There is so much sorrow in the world. and you want to say that "you're fed up with life", you want to "walk in the traffic" to end it all. Well why don't you? No. You are just a phoney.
Most people with unsurmountable problems in life just get on with life. They laugh at what life has dealt them and enjoy it.
If it gets you off fantasising with a suicide - then so be it. But remember the legions of people that are disabled, are mentally affected,or in great pain, and be grateful you are not included.

JohnnyBoy20012
JohnnyBoy20012
13 years ago

Kyle I don't want to kill yourself. Your not bothering me, I just want to help you buddy. You seem like a nice guy to be great friends with so if you are seeing this please message me your MSN or Yahoo and we can be friends. I don't mind to help you go through this tough times with you buddy you need a friend to love and to care about you.

13 years ago

My brother Kyle, life is often a challenge. The days pass and the pain fills our heart. Nobody can understand as it is dificult to live. Then stupid ideas grow in our minds. Dear Kyle I approached death, the doctors have told me "Clinically Dead" and I can tell you that I am so happy to have escaped his black cold Claws, that the huge dificulties of life are now radiating and sunny. Of course life is not easy, but I am happy today because la vie has finally smiled to me. I'll never known the love that was waiting for me. I send you waves of love and beg you not to deprive us of you.
Lionel, who has escaped eternal cold.

nate88
nate88
13 years ago

Seek professional help if you are in such a stte of mind. You've been give all the resources to get FREE help. Take some action. I never try to scold but scold I will if it makes you get help. Support is a BIG part of what we do at GBT. I'll help all I can but comeon. It is starting tolook like a pitty party. You know here help is now available - go NOW today. Addrees your problems. Onlysomuch can be done here and finding you help is a BIG part. Good Luck - let all know how your 'help' is going.

Kyle94
Kyle94
13 years ago

Thanks for all the messages...and Nate88 ur right I don't deserve to be bitching when people have cancer I should just die and stop bothering people about my selfishness....

13 years ago

well it happen so cope some plad on day in day out but come on look what you got first
are you fit and well that a bonus so all i can say try to sort your self out mate come on do for the guy here and just think about me when your down i an 38 got spina bifda had 12 ops and die and come back 4 time so have a good shower get some nice pants on and top and say today i going to go out and think what ian has said your health fit and ready for some love you got to find it whant find you so go go show you stuff and make a go of it dont sit there it whant come to you

nate88
nate88
13 years ago

FOR TOBY11467 - Many of us care and love you buddy - you're not alone. Hope you do OK tomorrow 8/21 with your 5th infusion. There IS a Blog posted below this one from Kya (Sam). Toby's updates areput there as often as possible. He's weak and unable to send but a few messages. Please make you wishes know on the described Blog or on his wall. Messages aregood to but PLEASE understand if he's unable to reply to all. He told me recently- All I need to see is that I'm LOVED". Andy

nate88
nate88
13 years ago

WELL - I'm about to piss off some members and some friends to but my curiosity got the best of my. I did some checking and this is what I find (Facts are facts). Since you posted this blog, you have spent many hours and many times logged in to GBT. You have never even posted one comment on your own blog. I and another sent you ALL help available with addresses and phone numbers in your area of Canada. I have sent you several messages of support and you have never answered one. I stopped checking at that point. Sorry to say GUYS - This blog smells rotten. I take people at their word here but when it is evident that this was for attention but don't know why you feel alone, YOU HAVE 267 FRIENDS ACCUMULATED. NO help from YOUR friends????????????? Didn't post to make anyone mad
but itmakes me MAD. You have an asshole saying he wants to give his life away when I have a friend here (TOBY) who is undergoing chemo to fight cancer and he want to live. That's whis this blog is WRONG and so is the member that posted . OK - now I'm ready for the stoneing by those that don't see the FACTS.

sawndry
sawndry
13 years ago

Hi Kyle
You'r so painful, don't stay alone with it. It must be some help lines in BC.
When you feel so sad you cannot look for a tomorrow, you cannot believe into life.
You can talk about your pain, anonymously. You can feel less of pain. You're looking for dying because this pain is too high.

Dying is not a solution.

you'r so young, give you a chance... there are a guy who is looking for you give him a chance
please try again ...

you can call .. no one else will know.

http://www.crisiscentre.bc.ca/get-help/other-resources/
Andy

sawndry
sawndry
13 years ago

Hi Kyle
You'r so painful, don't stay alone with it. It must be some help lines in BC.
When you feel so sad you cannot look for a tomorrow, you cannot believe into life.
You can talk about your pain, anonymously. You can feel less of pain. You're looking for dying because this pain is too high.

Dying is not a solution.

you'r so young, give you a chance... there are a guy who is looking for you give him a chance
please try again ...

you can call .. no one else will know.

http://www.crisiscentre.bc.ca/get-help/other-resources/
Andy

13 years ago

Ok. So we will not hear from him again?

13 years ago

georgets i dont think fraud and go away are the best words to say to a guy who is struggling against himself and writes here to find help from us :(

13 years ago

At times i felt like getting hit by a car. Ironicly back in late june....maybe it wil make you feel better knowing a lot more people are in it with you together.

13 years ago

At times i felt like getting hit by a car. Ironicly back in late june....maybe it wil make you feel better knowing a lot more people are in it with you together.

Toby19
Toby19
13 years ago

as for the rest of what you say Andy me agrees with you ............

Toby19
Toby19
13 years ago

Georgets me thinks that's a bit harsh .... if your ever in need, i hope someone doesn't say what you have just said to you ....yes i believe that we are free to voice our opinions ... but a little tact wouldn't be a bad thing here ... Andy ... why u surprised ... not all guys that have problems reply back, yes they take notice, but as in commenting not everyone is the same ....

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